you're all i ever think about
you're in my every waking thought
for i continue to assure myself
that you're the one i've sought

i barely even know you
i met you one month hence
but having been alone so long
i saw the other side of the fence

i build you up so much
that's why i can't continue on
but how can i hope to be loyal
when logic is so far gone

i want to see and hold you
i want you in my arms
i want to fall in love with you
and succumb to your subtle charms

but i know it doesn't come easy
it rarely comes at all
when i hope it will come to me again
i feel i'm setting me up for a fall

the physical distance is small
and our hearts grow closer each day
yet i make you out to be so much more
it's not fair but it seems the only way

why have i become so dependent
and compromised my own personal strength
and take in a girl i rarely will see
and for her swear to go to any length

the first girl to make me happy
when so many others will lie
the first girl to make me laugh and smile
instead of sulk and cry

i know it will not be easy
i know misery is becoming my friend
but unless i have to go down with the ship
i will follow this through to the end.

--Peter Johnson, 1996