Love And Hate

I think about you every day and night
I still want you by my side
I still love you, no matter how hard I try
To take this curse away from me

I remember how you feel in my arms
How you look lying next to me
It's so easy to tell myself that nothing's wrong
That you never meant to lie to me

Bridge:
Oh, it gets so hard, baby
Living life without you here
But I gotta keep telling myself I'm doin' the right thing
To never let
Your web of lies recapture me

Chorus:
So I won't love you anymore baby
I wanna get over you tonight
I've been tossing and turning and thinking
About what's best and not what I want
Cuz I want you

You tell me we can work it out
That you'll wait forever for me
But when you tell other men I mean nothing to you now
You make it easier to leave

You proclaim hate and poison for me
For everything you once adored
You stab insults, smile and burn the past
Did you want that all along?

Bridge:
Oh, it's so evil, my love
How you attack me with your familiarity
You can use hate to extinguish your love
But when love's gone
Your hate will rule your life so bitterly

Chorus:
So I won't love you anymore baby
I wanna get over you tonight
I've been tossing and turning and thinking
About what's best and not what I want
Cuz I want you

--Peter Johnson
January 26, 2005
(Inspired by "Shadowboxer" by Fiona Apple)