Somehow

Two years have passed now
Since I've seen your face
But your ghost remains affixed in my mind's eye
The faces and mannerisms
So many women I see
I know it's you they remind me of
Still I let the attraction flow

Pre-chorus:
But as the pain of loss
Swells before my eyes
Sometimes I miss you
Sometimes it's knowing I am missed too
I'm on a spiral between love and hate
Growing ever upward
It doesn't help to know
If the spiral doesn't end

Chorus:
I know you're gone for good
I hope you're gone for good
I know I'm better off
Without you in my life
But somehow I still miss you
And somehow still makes me cry

When I seek you out
The places you still haunt
I only find the skin you shed
You grew and you moved on
How did you find me
An apartment you never knew
How did I find you
When you left no trail of crumbs

But as the pain of loss
Swells before my eyes
Sometimes I miss you
Sometimes it's knowing I am missed too
I'm on a spiral between love and hate
Growing ever upward
It doesn't help to know
If the spiral doesn't end

I know you're gone for good
I hope you're gone for good
I know I'm better off
Without you in my life
But somehow I still miss you
And somehow still makes me cry

--Peter Johnson
February 25, 2008
(Inspired by "Never Is A Promise" by Fiona Apple)